Have you ever wondered what it feels like to be at an emotional "ground zero?" At 59, I thought I have experienced the whole gamut of emotions, both happy and sad and everything in between. I am just now experiencing a fine tuning of what the heart can feel. To be specific, it is only now I realize you can be both profoundly happy and profoundly sad, simultaneously. I always thought the heart can only take one emotion at a time. Like if a lover ditches you, sadness surrounds you no matter how colorful the world is. Or, if you won the lottery, happiness is the order of the day, no matter if you find out your husband has a mistress. Its only now I realize that the heart can be both happy and sad in the same intensity and exactly at the same time. Amazing!
So, what do you do when you just want to get over the Christmas spirit and the Christmas countdown? What do you do when people so close to you disappoint you to the point that you want to give up but can't because you try to hold on to those relentless, inspiring quotes you find in Facebook? And if you lose hope, love, compassion, humility, you somehow feel you've disappointed those well-meaning people at Facebook who ceaselessly lift your spirits up? What do you do when your sadness spurts overboard and messes up your carefully lined eye-liner and smear your mascara?
For me, I have Botolan on my mind. After a short bout of catatonia, my mind slowly fades into images of a Vitara-driven journey (front seat, passenger side), open, blue sky, tree-lined corridors of asphalt and concrete, wild tangle of wind-blown hair and yes, my ash-grey pooch, paws on the windows enjoying but confused at the onslaught of scents! I look at the driver and yes, he too is enjoying the ride.
Have to be as far away from ground zero as possible. And Botolan is spot-on.
So, what do you do when you just want to get over the Christmas spirit and the Christmas countdown? What do you do when people so close to you disappoint you to the point that you want to give up but can't because you try to hold on to those relentless, inspiring quotes you find in Facebook? And if you lose hope, love, compassion, humility, you somehow feel you've disappointed those well-meaning people at Facebook who ceaselessly lift your spirits up? What do you do when your sadness spurts overboard and messes up your carefully lined eye-liner and smear your mascara?
For me, I have Botolan on my mind. After a short bout of catatonia, my mind slowly fades into images of a Vitara-driven journey (front seat, passenger side), open, blue sky, tree-lined corridors of asphalt and concrete, wild tangle of wind-blown hair and yes, my ash-grey pooch, paws on the windows enjoying but confused at the onslaught of scents! I look at the driver and yes, he too is enjoying the ride.
Have to be as far away from ground zero as possible. And Botolan is spot-on.